| I'm an official Kappa Pi member! |
[Nov. 16th, 2006|02:27 am] |
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Busy as usual.
Yesterday I was inducted to Kappa Pi, an honorary art fraternity. It's technically called a fraternity but there is like 3 males in our chapter...lol. I was really nice. We recieved Kappa Pi certificates, pins, and a cute lil' keychain. My family came and everyone dressed up. It was a nice little distraction from all this school stress. I can't wait till Thanksgiving break, you have no idea! But for now i'm stuck here with a million things to do. I might go in the city on Saturday to buy some drawing supplies. I'm going to be in my first art show in two weeks! Not just my work, but it's everyone in my Senior portfolio class. I'm excited but I haven't even started working on my showpiece! Busy, busy, busy.... |
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| Halloween: Part II |
[Nov. 1st, 2006|12:32 am] |
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Halloween was awsome cause my teacher cancelled my 9:30 class and I got to sleep in ^_^ I went trick or treating at 6 around the neighborhood with some people from my class. I haven't done that in years. I thought the neighbors would be upset that some college kids wanted some candy but they all were very nice and generous. We got so much candy, and then we came back to the campus and swapped what we didn't want. I came back to my room to find my roommate in the same spot since I left. It seems like all she does is stay in the room and watch tv all day. I mean, I do that too sometimes but it seems like everytime i ask her to come with me to an event, she tells me she's busy or she doesn't feel like it. How can you refuse candy?! I'm gonna have the biggest stomach ache....
Happy Halloween everyone! |
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| Halloween party :-D |
[Oct. 26th, 2006|11:58 pm] |
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Since when did Halloween become the holiday where women dress really skanky? I went to my school's Halloween party tonight. The costumes were hilarious. They included a giant penis, teams from Legends of the Hidden Temple, alot of Minnie Mouses, Jesus, Flavor Flav, a Drag Ursula, the Burger King, and Sims. I, as usual, had to put something together at the last minute so i wore some flannel pjs, wore pigtails and a bathrobe and went as a little girl. Lame. I wanted to go as a Griffindor student but it was hard to find the right materials in such a short time. I swear, I think every girl except me dressed up pretty slutty. I couldn't dress like that...i'd be too awkward. Especially in 40 degree weather. It's not cute at all.This is my last Halloween party at school!*sob* I might go Trick or Treating next week though. I love Halloween. |
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[Oct. 25th, 2006|10:42 pm] |
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So even though I hate Wednesdays because i have so many classes, today was really good. I'm glad i'm finally getting some sense of direction with my works in class. I had to give a presentation on Kathe Kollwitz in my solar etching class today. I was nervous as hell cause I hate public speaking, but I didn't really good! And I even made a good print all in the same class. Ceramics wasn't that bad either. I stopped using that damn wheel and made something by hand for a change. It kinda sucks in a way but at least I made something. And my final class was good because I actually got a good critique by this girl in my class who never says anything about my work. And after the class, I saw my old roomie and we got dinner. Good times.
My school's Halloween party is tomorrow and I don't know what to go as(as usual). So far i've been a catholic schoolgirl and a gypsy. I'm thinking of wearing some slippers and cute pajamas and wearing my hair in pigtails but I don't know yet...It's my last Halloween party at school!! |
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| I watch too much reality tv |
[Oct. 18th, 2006|11:13 pm] |
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Well my 1 midterm is over with as of Monday. I think i failed or i just barely passed. My professor has no clue how to make a midterm. She expects everyone to remember every single detail about 100 different images! Then she expects us to remember 50 terms and write about them. And the fact that we also have a million other things to do doesn't help! And she didn't give a review or anything. Thank god i don't see that woman more than once a week. I'm starting not to like her as a teacher.
And on another note...I just came from a bagel/Project Runway party in my dorm lounge. I'm mad the people i wanted to win didn't win Project Runway. I first wanted Michael to win, but after seeing Uli's final collecction, I was in love with everything. And neither of them win! *Sob* And my favorite model in ANTM lost on the same day too! What's going on?! |
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| Parsons :-D |
[Oct. 10th, 2006|06:03 pm] |
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I'm looking at different graduate schools. Today me and my mom visited Parsons and took a tour of the school. I definitely want to stay in the city so this would be really good if i got accepted. Their fine arts program is really good. And nothing was too foreign to me in the place since I already took similar classes already. Except the rooms are 5 times bigger than my current school which i don't mind. I'd kill to dorm on their campus in the city. But its sooo expensive so i'm going to try and get some grants so i can afford everything. |
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| An artist is never satisfied. |
[Oct. 4th, 2006|11:38 pm] |
Another rant. Sorry.
Lately i've been feeling depressed and overwelmed with everthing, especially my art. I just don't feel like doing anything with my art. And it seems like everyone in all my classes has something going for them. They all know what they want to do. While i'm sitting here, with my head hurting, being frustrated, with a fucking plastered smile on my face pretending i'm happy and i know what i'm doing. And not one idea is coming out my head yet everyone seems to think I have "so many options to work with". I just want to cry or scream or do something! I can't even think straight. It's like i'm not here all of a sudden and i don't know what to do. And what's worse is that i can't just take a break or relax for a while because I have so much to do and think about. And a part of me is scared what people will think or say about what i do because it seems like in every critique of every class, all i get is bad feedback or no feedback at all. Just blank, empty stares.
My work is boring, mundane, and it has no meaning, like myself.
In just one day, i've had 2 different professors tell me something is wrong with me or that i'm not doing enough in class.
I'm sick of it!
I'm just too goddamn technical with everything! I have to be a fucking perfectionist, and when things don't work out, i'm screwed. And i can't get myself to think out of the box no matter what i do. I'm a damn robot. And I'm so pressed for time with EVERYTHING! My classes prevent me from seeing anyone or asking for help. So right now I needed to call my mom, but she was asleep. And noone in my dorm knows what i'm going through. And I feel like I can't express to my art professor or my classmates what i want to do because they don't understand and it's hard to communicate to about 25 people at night who are probably tired and ready to go home what I'm tring to do. And I never was a great talker to begin with.
It's killing me.
And noone in that class, not one person, knows how fucking hard it is for me every week to come up with something and organize things so I don't have a nervous breakdown in my classes. NOONE. And there are people in that class who bullshit every week yet i work my ass off thinking about everything, taking out every single art book in the library for ideas, sketching every day, writing things down, and wasting ALL of my money on supplies!
But i'm still not happy. Noone is happy with anything. I'm so down right now. A part of me wants to quit being an artist all together.
Seriously, anyone who thinks being an artist is sooooo easy and all you do is paint pretty pictures needs to have their head examined.
Then when I go home, there will probably be a million things going on at home i have to deal with. I fucking hate this all...
It's just really
difficult
and
depressing.
And I wanna cry to someone or hug someone right now. But i'm alone...As usual.
Sucks to be me....
I need therapy. Pronto. |
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| Slightly tipsy...but ok :-D |
[Oct. 2nd, 2006|10:36 pm] |
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Came back from a long Monday with my old roomie. It really doesn't feel like a Monday right now. We went to New York Central for some printmaking paper then to Friday's for some food and margaritas. It's good to be 21. I swear, just one drink makes me light-headed. I wish we could do that every week. It was a lot of fun even though I didn't do everything I wanted to. Apparently she's having some problems with her ex. I wish I had an ex to have problems with. I'm sure she'll be ok. This girl bought a shit-load of paper! I spent onlt $20 for a bunch of paper while this girl spent $97! She's crazy...but I love the gal. I wish we could be roomates for our last year...my current one doesn't talk to me and is constantly on the phone till 3 in the morning. She hasn't come back from the break yet. Not like i'm complaining or anything...I hate the awkward silence in the room.
I think i'm going to start watching 6 feet under on bravo..it looks interesting. Hopefully I can stay awake...g'night. |
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| Just a bit o' ranting... |
[Sep. 28th, 2006|11:43 pm] |
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I never know how to start off posts...I just do.Anyways, the lack of writing could have resulted from A)boredom or B)busy schedule. It seems like i'm always busy with something, yet i end up doing it the night before, every time. I looked at my planner and every single day is filled with something I have to do or should do. And now i have this paper clip holding my last two paychecks from work that I never cashed in. Then i'm going to have to take out money anyway for some more art supplies >_<
I never thought I would actually be this stressed having all art classes. I mean, anything is better than writting assignments and papers, but art projects can be stressful as well. My brain can't emit creativity for all these classes. Like for my Senior Portfolio class, my professor is liking this film noir, chiaroscuro idea i have with my drawings so she wants me to look up different artists and movies. Then she wants me to answer all these questions about my work like what am i trying to say with them or what is my story. But I don't have a freakin' story! I'm not really trying to say anything! I don't think so. I don't know...Urg! So i'm just basically looking at black and white film images, particularly Alfred Hitchcock, love him. And I have to get some supplies from Pearl. I wish I had a car, I don't like asking my parents to take me. Then for my history of graphic design class, I'm doing a paper on Alphonse Mucha and it's hard to find books about him in my library because they rearranged all the books. And my Photography teacher wants me to take some scenic pictures for class. Where the hell do I have time to do that?! And I'm involved in two clubs that are consistently e-mailing me about their events for International Week in October and how they need people to help them plan everything. Then what's pissing me off is the fact that everytime there's some event I really want to go to, my classes interfere with it. Like for instance, next week my school will be showing a variety of foreign films, but i won't be able to see half of them cause of my late Senior Portfolio class on Wednesday. It's not fair at all.. |
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[Sep. 24th, 2006|11:27 pm] |
My weekend has been long but pretty good. There was no class on Friday due to Jewish holiday so I decided to go shopping at this thrift store called savers near my school. I actually managed to get some good stuff. My roomate went home for the break so I had the place to myself for a change. And I could actually sleep! I think I slept a bit too much though. And i'm so happy because my dad told me over the phone that he got a job! It's part-time, but a job is a job.
I hate when I forget to write things on here....I had so much to write but I forgot it...oh well. |
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| Shiver me timbers! |
[Sep. 19th, 2006|05:34 pm] |
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I hate my job.
I hate my boss.
I hate having cramps during work.
I hate deadlines.
I hate artists' block
I hate loud people in the halls.
I hate writing hate entries...oh wait....Arrrrr!! |
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| 21...Wooo! |
[Sep. 15th, 2006|12:17 am] |
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Just realized i'm a bit late with writing this since it's no longer my birthday but....
I had a pretty ok day despite the rain. Me and my family went to the Old Country Buffet for dinner. Then to grandma's for some cake...and wine. I don't think i'll be a drinker, at least not right now. After a few sips i don't want anymore. Now i'm back in the room with my roommate, who is sick. I'm staying as distant as I can from her. I just have one class tomorrow then i'm free for the weekend. I'm gonna be busy playing the new Sims 2 stuff pack tomorrow so it looks like we're going to be stuck in the room together. Hope I don't catch anything. Bye for now. |
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[Sep. 13th, 2006|11:23 pm] |
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Came back from a looooong senior portfolio class. We spent hours critiquing everyone's art, which wouldn't be as bad if there were'nt 20 something people's projects to critque. And as much as I love my professor, she likes to talk. I like how she allows us to create or draw anything we like for her class and think outside the box, but for me it's difficult to do. I'm so used to being restricted to certain topics to do and work with the same materials that now i'm ready to do something different and I don't know where to start. It's like something is holding me back from doing what I want to do. Then I don't have the time nor the materials to do everything I decided to do so everything ends up last minute. Then there are the times when I have the ideas, but I can't put them on paper. It's so frustrating! I swear, being an art major is just as hard as any other major. I don't care what anyone says.
On another note...tomorrow will be my 21st birthday! Everytime I mention it to someone, they say something like "Are you going out to drink/get drunk?" But sadly, I have noone to go drinking with :-(
But if I did, I would NOT get drunk. I really don't see the point of someone going to a club or bar just to get wasted. There's no fun in that. So I'm probably going to dinner with the family, as usual. And since my dad got laid off a few years ago, i won't be getting much. But still....I hope to have a good day tomorrow since I cancelled work. Yay! |
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| My feet hurt... |
[Sep. 11th, 2006|01:21 am] |
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Grrr...I was late for an interview for Express due to traffic and the place relocation in the mall so now i'm rescheduled for Saturday! And I couldn't find any dress shoes so I had to wear these shoes that were one size too small for my feet. Boo. Now my feet ache and I didn't even have an interview. And i'm not even sure i'll get the job anyway because it hasn't been working with my schedule. But i'm not gonna cry about it since I already have a job. I just thought it would be nice to get paid a little more than my current job and I could also get discounts w/the store. Whatever happens happens...
Sunday was grandparents week and on Saturday my grandmother's church had a grandparents celebration including an honor for gandparents over 90. So my grandmother who turned 90 last month(and still looking great) invited the family. It was a nice ceremony and they served food. And all the 90yr olds recieved a gift basket. So my grandma was dressed all nice to get her basket. I swear she was the youngest 90 year old women in that place. The other women we sat at the table with were so crabby. I hope I never end up like that If/when I reach 90.
P.S. It's officially Sept. 11th. I'm gonna have a long week. |
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[Sep. 6th, 2006|07:03 pm] |
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It's funny how lately when it rains I have good days and today when it doesn't rain, my days suck. Today was one of my paranoia days where I don't feel like talking to anyone and it affects everything I do. Like in my Printmaking class, my print did not come out on my plate for some odd reason while everyone's came out perfect. So I got nothing done today which pisses me off. Then in Ceramics, I had no idea what I was gonna make and I ended up making a lot of mistakes. Then the guy I previously was obsessesed over at one time showed up in class to finish some project the day I decide to wear baggy jeans, a t-shirt and my hair up(looking as if I were 12) since it's ceramics. And because when i'm nervous and having a bad day my eyes tend to twitch and look around so now my eyes hurt. Then my school was having a career fair but they decided to have everything in the cafeteria so not only was it cramped and hot, but i had no idea what to do when I got there because everything was disorganized. And I have so much to do for my classes so i'm stressed and it's only week 2! Oh, and yesterday, I think I had some bad reaction to some food and my face broke out all day! I looked like a before person for Proactive. Stupid life...
P.S. RIP Steve Irwin. He's been all over the news. I thought he was crazy as hell on tv, but he seemed like a very passionate person towards his career and his family. |
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| Longest.Week.Ever. |
[Aug. 31st, 2006|01:01 am] |
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So Wednesday is officially, "let's drive Christine mad by not giving her any breaks to rest, eat, converse, etc" day. I'm so tired right now. I had some extra sleep this morning but it sure didn't feel like it. My first class was Printmaking and i was the last person to come to class, which i hate because everyone stares at you. But my professor is this adorable middle-aged woman who is from Mexico so she has an accent. But her prints are AMAZING! She my art hero! She talked for about 2 hours with no breaks. She and my grandmother would get along: they would never stop talking. Then I had less than 30 minutes to walk to get some food, then leave my printing supplies in my room, then eat, then walk back to my ceramics class. I'm really liking Ceramics. I always have one class that I really like because it relaxes me. We just sit at a table as a group, talk, and make stuff out of clay for 2 hours. And that's it. 30 minutes after the class was over, I went to my last class at 6:30, Senior portfolio. It was good to see my old drawing professor again, but I know I'm in over my head with that class. She basically is going to prepare everyone for the senior show in May in which our work is going to be professionally hung in the main gallery of my school. And she wants over 20 projects.....Pressure! I have enough stress as it is.....*sigh* |
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[Aug. 30th, 2006|01:53 am] |
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So today was pretty boring. My first and only class today was Digital photography. While it sounded interesting, the professor turned out to be very annoying within the first 10 minutes. He gave everyone in the class a sheet in which we had to fill in answers about what interests we have, what our passions are, favorite artists, writers, etc. So after we finish, he starts talking on and on about the course and photography for about an hour. Then just when i thought he would finally shut up and let us leave early, he decided to read every students sheet they filled out and ask us a million questions about it. It was like he was interviewing each person in the room for a job. Then he puts random people on the spot and asks us questions about photography like we know the answers. I hate that! That was just the first day! And the room was freezing! I was ready to jump out the window. Literally. It was so horrible. But hopefully I can try and enjoy this class or at least pass it.
The weather has been so crazy this week. A week ago, It was so hot I could hardly stand it and now it's freezing everywhere. I had to walk to work in the cold rain. I haven't worked all summer so when I came back, everything was moved around. My boss was on vacation at least so i didn't have to bring out my fake smile out for the week. The big finale of my day occurred when I first came to work and I saw about 3 new guys on the job. And we NEVER have young guys on my job. So of course i couldn't help but notice. One of the guy who happened to be the best looking in my opinion said hello to me and smiled. So after thinking this semester wouldn't be so bad after all, I met up in another room my other female coworkers who were talking. Then during the middle of the conversation, one of the girls was saying how cute the guy i had met was. Then I hear the other girl say that unfortunately he's only 16....WTF?! I died. I mean, the guy looked like a college student to me! I'm such a pedophile.... |
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[Aug. 28th, 2006|09:52 pm] |
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So Monday wasn't that bad. My history of graphic design class seemed normal. There are less than 10 people in the class. My professor is sooo young, everyone thought she was a student. She's too adorable to teach. And i'm really excited about the class because her list of topics we're supposed to discuss included Pop Art, art noveau, and one of my favorite artists, Alphonse Mucha(squee)! My Ceramics class was also very good, and surprisingly relaxing. Our professor is such a hippie. He's so laid-back and he looks just like Jerry Garcia. He told the class that he's going to pass everyone as long as they come to class. Sounded good to me. Instead of a syllabus he gave us articles about pottery with really interesting quotes. And he lets us play our cds during class. Good times.
My day was complete when I saw my old roomie in the cafeteria. We were able to chat a bit, then she had to drive home since she's now commuting. I miss her and my cousin who also left the dorm. Why must all the good people in my life leave me?! |
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| Update time! |
[Aug. 28th, 2006|12:29 am] |
I haven't written in 3 months. The whole summer! In other words, nothing exciting happened over the summer. No summer romances or exciting cross-country vacations...unless you include a 2 hr trip to New Jersey to see some relatives and babysit some hyperactive cousins under 5 years old. But other than that it's good to be back.
I'm still in the same dorm except a different room and roommate. I moved in yesterday and i'm still getting adjusted. Right now it's awkwardly quiet with my new roommate who is'nt as talkative as my last one. And 2 quiet roommates equals dead silence. But she's nice and we get along. The room is a lot better than last year. The only thing is that the window is located in the front of the building so you can hear everyone who is walking outside. That included some construction workers at 7 in the morning and the school bells that are facing the window that go off in the morning every hour. At least i'll be able to wake up tomorrow for class :-/
My schedule for the semester:
Monday: History of Graphic design 9am-11:30am
Ceramics I 3:30pm-6pm
Tuesday: Digital Photography 9:30-12
Work :-(
Wednesday: Solar Etching 12:30-3:00
Ceramics I 3:30-6
Senior Portfolio 6:30pm-9pm
Thursday: Digital Photography 9:30-12
Work
Friday: Solar Etching 12:30-3
...So i'm gonna be busy. |
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| School's almost done... |
[May. 15th, 2006|02:21 pm] |
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Hope everyone had a nice mothers day or at least a nice Sunday. I've been busy for what seems like one of the longest months this year. My finals started today. My first one was my Final presentation for Advanced drawing. That didn't go that bad except for when i came to class late and had nowhere to place my drawings cause everyone came early and grabbed a spot. Fortunately I made some space for my work on my own and got a really good critique :-) I know it's been a while since I posted but basically I went with my roommate to the Brooklyn Botanical Gardens a few weeks ago during the Cherry Blossom Festival and did a series of 4 charcoal drawings based on the pics I took. So the whole project came out good; I worked my ass off, but well worth the time and energy.
I have 2 finals tomorrow that i haven't yet started studying on. I don't know why but i'm having one of those "whatever" moments with my finals. I should be stressed, but I honestly don't care right now. I just want this to be done with.
My roommate isn't dorming here anymore. I'm gonna miss her. I had the most fun with her out of everyone I knew at school. I don't want her to go!!! *sob* Now who am I going to hang out with and talk to :-( |
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